OKAY....OKAY

So it has been FOREVER since I have posted a blog. I hope that I can be forgiven since I have a pretty good reason. I am sure many people have guessed, so I am saying it to everyone...I am pregnant! It is so crazy to be pregnant again. So many things happen to your body that you forget about. :) I am glad that you forget most of how bad the bad stuff is...because it really makes you not want to be pregnant again. Guess that is why after we give birth we forget it all because we have this beautiful little life in our hands!

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Sooo...here is a sono pic at 12 weeks....

...and here is another....

....and here they are together (9wks)...

...yup, you read correctly...we are having TWINS!!! (7wk sono)

It is still so crazy to me to say twins out loud. When the doctor first started saying things like "baby A and baby B" it was mind boggling. I don't think it has still really sunk in. I think my brain won't let it. I keep saying to myself "ok, the next sonogram I will believe it is really happening". But when we leave I start saying the same thing about the next visit.

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The few times I have REALLY thought about it, bringing home two babies and a then almost 2 yr old, I get such anxiety that my chest hurts, and I have to think about something else. :) I know I can handle it all, it is just all so crazy.

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So this Monday I will be 15 weeks along, with my full term due date (40wks) being October 12th. Remember Ava's birthday is on October 20th. My doctor won't let me go past 38 weeks, which would be on September 28th. I have a feeling that I won't even make it to 38, but I am keeping my fingers crossed. My immediate concerns are being put on bedrest early, and/or going into early labor. It is stressful enough worrying about the health/growth of one baby inside of you, but two is doubley hard on me.

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Speaking of doubley hard...the first trimester was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I felt SOO much sicker with this pregnancy...starting before I even had a positive pregnancy test... sick night and day...even during sleep...for the first 12 weeks. Talk about being miserable. I felt so bad for little Ava. All I could do was lay on the couch during the day and have her come to me to play. Even now I can bend down and do too much with her because I start getting a little crampy.

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The past few weeks I have felt tons better. I can eat (not a lot at each meal, but I get hungry very often), and very rarely do I feel sick. I think that is the part of pregnancy I hate the most...feeling sick all the time. I am getting more tired/run down these days, have HORRIBLE headaches everyday from all of the extra hormones, and already having problems with a pinched nerve on my left side. But I will take those over feeling sick. :)

I am also really starting to show. It is crazy how it just popped up overnight. I feel like I look like what I did when I was 20wks along with Ava. I am sure some of you will start wanting some belly pics. I am a little worried with how little my torso is, how I am going to fit two babies in there. I asked the nurse if that made a difference on carrying the babies to full term, and she said no. We'll see.

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My doctor wants me to gain atleast 55lbs with twins. EEK! And I have to gain the majority of it in the second trimester since in the third it will be hard to eat/gain weight with the babies smooshing on my stomach.

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No really big cravings yet. Well, except stuffed jalapenos from Jack in the Box...gross I know...but for some reason I am luvin them- even for breakfast! :) With Ava I couldn't get enough Taco Bell. Thing is, when I am not pregnant we hardly ever eat at these places. I am a big sweet tooth, and with this pregnancy I really do not want to eat sweets. I try, but after a few bites it is not doing it for me. It really freaks me out! Lol. On the other hand, I am liking fresh fruits and raw veggies.

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I think that about brings the whole absence and pregnancy up to date. Ava has no idea that she is going to be a big sister. I keep trying to tell her, and ask her where the babies are...but she just likes to stick her finger in my belly button and laugh. Maybe at 2, when they come, she will understand. Hunter hasn't really said one way or another about having two more siblings. I think he is worried about how it will affect all of the travelling we like to do. Not really gonna happen this summer when I am big and miserable...and not gonna happen with 3 babies and 3 pack n plays loaded up, diapers, toys, etc. :/ (Insert anxiety chest pains here).

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We go to the doctor on Monday, and hopefully I will have more to update. I am really going to try and not let as much time pass during posts.

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Hope everyone is well!! Much love to all!!